I hate how hard it is to stay on track with creative stuff without a job. As long as I'm working, yeah it's kind of a crutch for lack of motivation, but still, I can think, 'well I may not be doing a comic or whatever, but it's one up on the shmoes I work with.' Now without the job, it feels like I'm making a complete waste of myself as long as I'm not pumping out some huge creative project immediately and that really seems like my only option considering the little no real jobs available thing.

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It seems like I'm just stuck between a rock and a hard place; I'm moving into my final year at Ai so next quarter, I have to start getting prepped for graduation next spring but I seriously need a job now but don't really have the time for a job. Talk about being fucked :\ I hear ya about the motivation thing; you'd think having more time on your hands would allow you to do more but it really just allows you more time to be lazy

Yeah, no doubt. As long as I've got some money saved up myself and a little UI coming in, I really want to try and get something started up creative-wise. I don't really have the skills or experience for any available jobs right now and busting ass for any companies I've worked for has gotten me nothing but the situation I'm in right now for the past fifteen years. It'd be ridiculous to assume I could make any sort of finances with something, at least any time soon, but I really want to be making some real progress on something so my life doesn't just revolve around some shit job that's going to put me out the door whenever it feels like and whatever whimsical art project I feel like cooking up as a hobby on the side. Like I said though, the pressure that comes along with wanting that is just making me more finicky about all my creative stuff, haha. Of course, you're right about ol' fashioned laziness too, hee.

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